Monday, March 31, 2008
Ain't She Cute?!
Today is one of the days the kids get to play video games. Usually Livvy just watches and plays toys. Today the big kids made her own little game on Viva Pinata. She was so excited to play. Here she is (she's wearing an old nightgown of Elizabeth's)!!
I will NOT be......
dealing with anyone or anything today - just so you all know!!! I don't mean to be rude, and you guys know I love you dearly BUT it's been a tough night/day. I'll explain. :(
I started typing up my experiences just now and realized that to get the full effect I have to go back even farther and give some background. I was also going to make this a funny commentation of everything, but alas it's not going to be so...
I've dealt with depression for a very long time. At one point I hit rock-bottom with it and went into emotional shutdown. I have recently realized that I HATE emotions and actually run away from them. I even rejected the Spirit most times because I couldn't deal with it. I felt things so drastically that eventually I shut it off. Well, in realizing this sad aspect of me, I decided to change even though I knew it would mean uncontrollable emotions and extremes in my feelings. But it's worth it right?! I mean how can you raise a family and live the Gospel without the Spirit in your life?! Sooooo, yesterday was the first day that I've really fasted in a long time. And by "really fasting," I mean not just going without food, but having a purpose and desire. (Oh, remind me to share a neat experience with you later.) Anyway, I'm on the edge of an emotional cliff.
So now with that background.....
Last night at about 1am I watched a Dateline show about 2 girls that had been in a car accident. One died and the other lived in a coma for 5 weeks. When she started to come to, her family realized that it wasn't their daughter but in fact was one of the other girls that had "died" in the accident. And realizing this, they understood that their daughter had died and been buryied as the other girl.
Well, this is not the sort of show an emotionally tender Mommy should watch at 1 in the morning! So at 2am everything that could go wrong to my children DID (in my mind). :(
Now Mommies, if you've never had the "pleasure" of this late night worry session, you are really missing out! My mom has gone through it (still does), my sister goes through it, and I too go through it. It's quite the experience!
Ok, back to my story. Needless to say, I couldn't sleep and went on the couch to watch something mild. I didn't fall asleep until 4ish and then only slept restlessly, waking completely at 6am.
Now, my fun doesn't stop there - and this is where I can now look back and laugh (sortof). I got the kids ready for school and we are heading out the door. We get in the van and drive out of the garage. And THIS is what happens:
My Hubby sure is sweet! And that's all I'm going to say about that!!! :)
I started typing up my experiences just now and realized that to get the full effect I have to go back even farther and give some background. I was also going to make this a funny commentation of everything, but alas it's not going to be so...
I've dealt with depression for a very long time. At one point I hit rock-bottom with it and went into emotional shutdown. I have recently realized that I HATE emotions and actually run away from them. I even rejected the Spirit most times because I couldn't deal with it. I felt things so drastically that eventually I shut it off. Well, in realizing this sad aspect of me, I decided to change even though I knew it would mean uncontrollable emotions and extremes in my feelings. But it's worth it right?! I mean how can you raise a family and live the Gospel without the Spirit in your life?! Sooooo, yesterday was the first day that I've really fasted in a long time. And by "really fasting," I mean not just going without food, but having a purpose and desire. (Oh, remind me to share a neat experience with you later.) Anyway, I'm on the edge of an emotional cliff.
So now with that background.....
Last night at about 1am I watched a Dateline show about 2 girls that had been in a car accident. One died and the other lived in a coma for 5 weeks. When she started to come to, her family realized that it wasn't their daughter but in fact was one of the other girls that had "died" in the accident. And realizing this, they understood that their daughter had died and been buryied as the other girl.
Well, this is not the sort of show an emotionally tender Mommy should watch at 1 in the morning! So at 2am everything that could go wrong to my children DID (in my mind). :(
Now Mommies, if you've never had the "pleasure" of this late night worry session, you are really missing out! My mom has gone through it (still does), my sister goes through it, and I too go through it. It's quite the experience!
Ok, back to my story. Needless to say, I couldn't sleep and went on the couch to watch something mild. I didn't fall asleep until 4ish and then only slept restlessly, waking completely at 6am.
Now, my fun doesn't stop there - and this is where I can now look back and laugh (sortof). I got the kids ready for school and we are heading out the door. We get in the van and drive out of the garage. And THIS is what happens:
My Hubby sure is sweet! And that's all I'm going to say about that!!! :)
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
This is Kindof Fun! :)
You're as popular and relaxing as vanilla ice cream. You go with the flow, and get along with all sorts of people. You appreciate peace and simplicity, so you sometimes find crowds and loud noises overwhelming. You are a chilled-out, calming influence on the people in your life, and your friends appreciate how supportive and flexible you are.
I'm REALLY Sorry Mom!!
I know that these digipages I post make you sad for your babies. But I'll tell you what, my hits on my counter go way up!!!! Between you and me (and cyberspace) all 400 hits are probably from you! LOL
Anyway, here is another one I did tonight.
Anyway, here is another one I did tonight.
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
Saturday Fun
Well, we had one of my old companions and her family and one of Bret's old companions and his family over Saturday. We see Jason (Bret's comp.) often enough. But I haven't seen Rachel (my comp.) in about 10 years.
We had a BBQ and played Apples to Apples. It was LOTS of fun!! It was good to see Jason and Karlee again, along with their 2 boys; and to see Rachel and Bret, along with their 4 kids.
Elizabeth and Rachels oldest daughter (London 8) were glued at the hip! :) They didn't want to say goodby and asked for a sleep-over. I had to tell her no because I was just so tired. BUT we are planning on visiting them when we go to Utah this summer.
So, all in all we had a VERY fun time!!! It was good to see how everyone is doing and reminisce about the good ol days.
Then Sunday we had a fun dinner at the Biggs' house. Everything was so yummy and we all had fun. Thanks Jared, Haylie, Carly, Riley, and Colt! :) We'll have to Queff again soon. LOL :)
And that has been basically the latest news for us. I'll post again as soon as something fun happens - but don't hold your breath! :)
We had a BBQ and played Apples to Apples. It was LOTS of fun!! It was good to see Jason and Karlee again, along with their 2 boys; and to see Rachel and Bret, along with their 4 kids.
Elizabeth and Rachels oldest daughter (London 8) were glued at the hip! :) They didn't want to say goodby and asked for a sleep-over. I had to tell her no because I was just so tired. BUT we are planning on visiting them when we go to Utah this summer.
So, all in all we had a VERY fun time!!! It was good to see how everyone is doing and reminisce about the good ol days.
Then Sunday we had a fun dinner at the Biggs' house. Everything was so yummy and we all had fun. Thanks Jared, Haylie, Carly, Riley, and Colt! :) We'll have to Queff again soon. LOL :)
And that has been basically the latest news for us. I'll post again as soon as something fun happens - but don't hold your breath! :)
Thursday, March 20, 2008
Finding my place
I have had an overflowing mind today. And since I love my blog so much, here I am reflecting on a few things.
For the past few months I have been transitioning into another phase of my life. And it has been difficult. I've gone from the "new family" part into the "more established family" part. My childbearing years are done and my kiddos are getting older. And not only that, I feel my desires and thoughts changing too. I look at things differently and I am having a hard time fitting in. Part of my life is still with the young mommies, and yet I'm stepping into the older mommies stage. I've come to realize that we go through this all our lives. Growing pains! :)
The hardest part to all of this is realizing that I'm not even the same person I used to be. I struggle with things that I handled wonderfully in the past. I get frustrated with things that I used to have patience for. Certain aspects of my personality are completely opposite. I'm trying so hard to be who I used to be and yet realizing that I can't. (Man, do I sound like a mid-life crisis or what?!) LOL
If anyone has any quick fix ideas, let me know! :)
Anywho, sorry for the deep thoughts! I've just been thinking about things a lot.
Tonight we are going to the Easter Pagent at the Temple. I could really use a nice night with my family! Bret works Mon, Tues, Wed nights until 10ish pm. By Thursday I miss him and really crave family time. Sooooooo I better go and get things ready.
For the past few months I have been transitioning into another phase of my life. And it has been difficult. I've gone from the "new family" part into the "more established family" part. My childbearing years are done and my kiddos are getting older. And not only that, I feel my desires and thoughts changing too. I look at things differently and I am having a hard time fitting in. Part of my life is still with the young mommies, and yet I'm stepping into the older mommies stage. I've come to realize that we go through this all our lives. Growing pains! :)
The hardest part to all of this is realizing that I'm not even the same person I used to be. I struggle with things that I handled wonderfully in the past. I get frustrated with things that I used to have patience for. Certain aspects of my personality are completely opposite. I'm trying so hard to be who I used to be and yet realizing that I can't. (Man, do I sound like a mid-life crisis or what?!) LOL
If anyone has any quick fix ideas, let me know! :)
Anywho, sorry for the deep thoughts! I've just been thinking about things a lot.
Tonight we are going to the Easter Pagent at the Temple. I could really use a nice night with my family! Bret works Mon, Tues, Wed nights until 10ish pm. By Thursday I miss him and really crave family time. Sooooooo I better go and get things ready.
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Wyoming Hens
Did you know that hens from Wyoming are very crazy and spazy? They jump right out of your hand into the air - landing on lamps, in kitchen sinks, and even in other peoples' faces?! Their eggs can be used as tools of mass destruction (when combined with imagination)and they can also be used as methods of argument and contention. How do I know all this you might ask. Well, we received a "shipment" of these hens in the mail today and all day I've noticed this behavior. I'm not happy with it!
Seriously, you really might be wondering what my deal is so I'll tell you. We did indeed receive some handmade crocheted hens (with egg in the butt) and my kids have been having SOOOO much fun with them! :) Right out of the package and my kids were throwing them at each other (and me!), and then fighting over them when Livvy had them all in her little baby box. (Don't ask)
Thank you Mom! :)
Honestly, the kids LOVE these hens! I told them how we had some just like them when we were little. They thought that was pretty cool!
Here is a picture of one of those pesky hens. It's not a very good picture, but you just try to get one of these little boogers to sit still in a nicely lit area!
And even as I try to get a picture of these hens posted, Livvy is having them talk to each other and play with each other. :)
Seriously, you really might be wondering what my deal is so I'll tell you. We did indeed receive some handmade crocheted hens (with egg in the butt) and my kids have been having SOOOO much fun with them! :) Right out of the package and my kids were throwing them at each other (and me!), and then fighting over them when Livvy had them all in her little baby box. (Don't ask)
Thank you Mom! :)
Honestly, the kids LOVE these hens! I told them how we had some just like them when we were little. They thought that was pretty cool!
Here is a picture of one of those pesky hens. It's not a very good picture, but you just try to get one of these little boogers to sit still in a nicely lit area!
And even as I try to get a picture of these hens posted, Livvy is having them talk to each other and play with each other. :)
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
Here's another one.... (sorry Mom)
Sorry everyone who might be sick of my digipages, here is yet another. I'm just having so much fun with it. :) And sorry Mom for making you grandbaby sick.
Spring Break
So far Spring Break has been a Pain in the Neck - and it's only the 2nd day so far! Yesterday we spent a bit of time taking the van in for repairs. The AC has gone out and here in Phoenix we can NOT do without it once summer comes (or even Spring)! :)
The kids have been restless. We haven't been able to do anything without the van. Hopefully we'll be able to pick it up today and have some fun before the week is all over.
I AM excited because one of my old mission companions is coming to Phx this week. We'll get a chance to hang out and reminesce (is that how you spell it?). I'm not sure what we'll do, but it'll be good to see her.
We are also going to try to go to the Easter Pagent at the temple. It's always such a wonderful thing. I think it's exactly what our little family needs right now. To see a little more of what Easter is really about. You know how it is - you try to teach them, and you have to go over it all again and again and again. I feel as if the kids have been a little focused on the wrong aspects of Easter. I have to admit, I have been too. If anyone has any other ideas on how to creatively bring the Easter Spirit into our home right now, feel free to let me know. :)
Well, I really need to go and do my exercises. I'm trying to follow my sisters' example and exercise 5 days a week. Jen is actually working out 6 days a week though. I can't handle THAT much work! :) LOL
The kids have been restless. We haven't been able to do anything without the van. Hopefully we'll be able to pick it up today and have some fun before the week is all over.
I AM excited because one of my old mission companions is coming to Phx this week. We'll get a chance to hang out and reminesce (is that how you spell it?). I'm not sure what we'll do, but it'll be good to see her.
We are also going to try to go to the Easter Pagent at the temple. It's always such a wonderful thing. I think it's exactly what our little family needs right now. To see a little more of what Easter is really about. You know how it is - you try to teach them, and you have to go over it all again and again and again. I feel as if the kids have been a little focused on the wrong aspects of Easter. I have to admit, I have been too. If anyone has any other ideas on how to creatively bring the Easter Spirit into our home right now, feel free to let me know. :)
Well, I really need to go and do my exercises. I'm trying to follow my sisters' example and exercise 5 days a week. Jen is actually working out 6 days a week though. I can't handle THAT much work! :) LOL
Saturday, March 15, 2008
A lot has happened!
Well, this past week we've had Grandma & Grandpa Little here with us!! We love having them come! And this morning they left. It's always hard for us when they leave. :(
On other bits of news - I've been called as a YCL Leader for Girls Camp! Wow - can you believe it?! I have mixed emotions, but mostly excited. I have a few of my friends that are also going so that will be FUN!!! One of my best friends will actually be a YCL Leader with me! And another best friend will be the Craft Director! And that's not to mention having fun with all the girls. :)
Bret has finished the classes he was taking. He did very well! I'm so proud of him. I know how hard it was for him to take these difficult classes AND work AND his church callings AND raising kids AND being my sweet Hubby! On the plus side, he'll get a bit of a raise for those classes. :)
As you can see, I'm still enjoying my digital scrapbooking software! I just did 3 more pages this morning while I was waiting for the kids to wake up. :) Here's one of them:
Well, I need to get busy doing something today. I've had an upset tummy and it's a little settled right now. I really should do something while I can. :)
On other bits of news - I've been called as a YCL Leader for Girls Camp! Wow - can you believe it?! I have mixed emotions, but mostly excited. I have a few of my friends that are also going so that will be FUN!!! One of my best friends will actually be a YCL Leader with me! And another best friend will be the Craft Director! And that's not to mention having fun with all the girls. :)
Bret has finished the classes he was taking. He did very well! I'm so proud of him. I know how hard it was for him to take these difficult classes AND work AND his church callings AND raising kids AND being my sweet Hubby! On the plus side, he'll get a bit of a raise for those classes. :)
As you can see, I'm still enjoying my digital scrapbooking software! I just did 3 more pages this morning while I was waiting for the kids to wake up. :) Here's one of them:
Well, I need to get busy doing something today. I've had an upset tummy and it's a little settled right now. I really should do something while I can. :)
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Busy this week....
I am very busy this week, but I know how you all LOVE hearing from me. I decided to spend a few minutes and post a couple of digipages! :) So enjoy my little hello and know that I will post a more detailed account of my past few weeks after my in-laws leave!
Monday, March 3, 2008
Paige, this one is for you!!
Did I tell you that Livvy LOVES her new purple Crocs! She is so happy that her "friend" Paige sent them to her. Thank You!! I made a cute picture to show you.
Saturday, March 1, 2008
More one-liners
Well, I really should be doing things right now. I have a VERY busy day today. So I thought I'd post some quick one-liners to keep you up to date.
Stake Women's Conference today - REALLY want to go but probably can't. :(
Have food to cook for Blue and Gold Banquet this evening.
Elizabeth had a sleepover at her friends house last night. She called me at 11:30 last night whipsering that she missed me. Breaks my heart to have her grow up.
Want to go Scrapbooking tonight with group of friends. Probably won't be able to do that either.
Livvy slept on floor in our room last night. Was kinda fun/cute having her there. She's still asleep! Wow!
Just realized that my oldest son has a voice problem. He CANNOT be quiet to save his life!
I'm worried and jealous of my friend Mela. She knows why! Thanks for last night - FUN!
Loved the movie Vantage Point! Very intense and good. Violence and language. Just FYI in case you wanna go. Mom, don't go - you'll get sick. :)
I LOVE my digital scrapbooking! It has helped me to feel creative without all the anxiety that I feel from normal scrapbooking.
It's also fun to share my knowledge (not very much of that) with others who want the same ease of creativity.
I love how much my kids enjoy looking at their scrapbooks. I don't worry about them ruining them either. I have my own scrapbook, it's where I keep all the originals and I've made color copies of the pages for each child to have a scrapbook. I only include in their books pages that have them in it. This way I'm only doing a page once and color copying it 4 more times or so depending on who the page is about. If it's a family event, I copy it 4 times (once for each kid). (This really wasn't a one-liner huh?)
Need to lose weight and get in better health. Want to feel good.
No more soda (see above). Really starting to understand the yucky that it puts into your body. Ok, one more! LOL
I love Office Max. I went yesterday and printed off some of my digi-pages and they look good. AND it was only .49 each copy! :)
Well, I need to feed the mob (minus one) and get busy today. Maybe I CAN make it to the Women's Conference. We'll see!
Stake Women's Conference today - REALLY want to go but probably can't. :(
Have food to cook for Blue and Gold Banquet this evening.
Elizabeth had a sleepover at her friends house last night. She called me at 11:30 last night whipsering that she missed me. Breaks my heart to have her grow up.
Want to go Scrapbooking tonight with group of friends. Probably won't be able to do that either.
Livvy slept on floor in our room last night. Was kinda fun/cute having her there. She's still asleep! Wow!
Just realized that my oldest son has a voice problem. He CANNOT be quiet to save his life!
I'm worried and jealous of my friend Mela. She knows why! Thanks for last night - FUN!
Loved the movie Vantage Point! Very intense and good. Violence and language. Just FYI in case you wanna go. Mom, don't go - you'll get sick. :)
I LOVE my digital scrapbooking! It has helped me to feel creative without all the anxiety that I feel from normal scrapbooking.
It's also fun to share my knowledge (not very much of that) with others who want the same ease of creativity.
I love how much my kids enjoy looking at their scrapbooks. I don't worry about them ruining them either. I have my own scrapbook, it's where I keep all the originals and I've made color copies of the pages for each child to have a scrapbook. I only include in their books pages that have them in it. This way I'm only doing a page once and color copying it 4 more times or so depending on who the page is about. If it's a family event, I copy it 4 times (once for each kid). (This really wasn't a one-liner huh?)
Need to lose weight and get in better health. Want to feel good.
No more soda (see above). Really starting to understand the yucky that it puts into your body. Ok, one more! LOL
I love Office Max. I went yesterday and printed off some of my digi-pages and they look good. AND it was only .49 each copy! :)
Well, I need to feed the mob (minus one) and get busy today. Maybe I CAN make it to the Women's Conference. We'll see!
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