It's been a long day for me!! Long and emotional! I got some tough news today and it has really got me to thinking. I am not going to share the news (not my story to tell), but it made me think about the truly important things in life. Death is imminent for all of us. Some sooner than others and depending on your beliefs, you might cease to exist or go onto another life.
My beliefs are what give me a lot of strength. I am grateful for the knowledge that I have of a Plan that goes further than this life. Not only will I still exist, but I can be with my family and with Bret for Eternity.
(sigh) And all my thoughts went back to my day to day life. All the petty stupid things just seemed to melt away. Is it really all that important what people think of me, or who is mad at who? And honestly, why do I get so frustrated about all that stuff?
I need to hold my kids a little tighter and treat my Sweetheart a little kinder (ok, a LOT). I need to remember those that I love and reach out to them continually so they know how special they are to me. Our time in this life is no guarantee. It's time for me to drop the drama and get real (so to speak)!
Sunday, November 20, 2011
Sunday, November 13, 2011
Wow
I looked at my last post, March 2010. Long time ago. I have recently felt the need to come back to my blog and begin to write my life and feelings again. Before it was more about sharing what is going on in our lives, but right now I have been going through a lot of inside changes. I was a place to write them all down and I really like the "blog" format. Don't know why - just do. I think it might have something to do with the need we all have to share a bit of ourselves with someone. This is more of a random, "here I am" type of sharing.
So, onto my posting...
Lately I have struggled with changes in my personality and the way I look at things. Maybe it's because I am getting older. Maybe it's because I haven't been on my medication. :) And honestly, it could even be because I haven't been close to my Heavenly Father. Which is a big deal for me. Anyone who knew me years ago, knew how often I turned to Him. My testimony was a big part of my life and who I was. Not so much now. And it makes me sad.
My personality now? Bitter, sarcastic, untrusting, introverted, and judgemental. All of which were always part of me, just not very strong. Before, I was able to see someones faults before, but not let it affect my opinion of them. Now, on the other hand, I just get so frustrated by people and what I view as their poor choices. And I get angry and feel that I need to tell them the "right" way of doing things!
I know how bad this sounds! YUCK! But it's the truth. I could analyze myself for hours and figure out where this all comes from but I think for now I just wanna work on making it go away and getting back to who I am at the CORE.
First thing is to get back to reading my Scriptures and saying my Prayers. I NEED that! I CRAVE that!
Second is to work hard to be a Postive person. In my thoughts, my words and my actions. It is amazing how when you start to think negatively it becomes who you are.
And thirdly, I need to work on loving myself. This entails making better health choices and being content with my strengths and not jealous of others. I am a quiet, behind the scenes kind of person. I shouldn't try to be the life of the party. That's just awkward for everyone involved! :) LOL
Lastly, find ways to show the ones I love how much I love them in simple ways. Been reading the "Five Love Languages" book and want to apply it to all people I love. So don't be surprised to get a call or card or sign of love from me.
And as always, you are welcome to come along on this crazy ride of self REdiscovery!
So, onto my posting...
Lately I have struggled with changes in my personality and the way I look at things. Maybe it's because I am getting older. Maybe it's because I haven't been on my medication. :) And honestly, it could even be because I haven't been close to my Heavenly Father. Which is a big deal for me. Anyone who knew me years ago, knew how often I turned to Him. My testimony was a big part of my life and who I was. Not so much now. And it makes me sad.
My personality now? Bitter, sarcastic, untrusting, introverted, and judgemental. All of which were always part of me, just not very strong. Before, I was able to see someones faults before, but not let it affect my opinion of them. Now, on the other hand, I just get so frustrated by people and what I view as their poor choices. And I get angry and feel that I need to tell them the "right" way of doing things!
I know how bad this sounds! YUCK! But it's the truth. I could analyze myself for hours and figure out where this all comes from but I think for now I just wanna work on making it go away and getting back to who I am at the CORE.
First thing is to get back to reading my Scriptures and saying my Prayers. I NEED that! I CRAVE that!
Second is to work hard to be a Postive person. In my thoughts, my words and my actions. It is amazing how when you start to think negatively it becomes who you are.
And thirdly, I need to work on loving myself. This entails making better health choices and being content with my strengths and not jealous of others. I am a quiet, behind the scenes kind of person. I shouldn't try to be the life of the party. That's just awkward for everyone involved! :) LOL
Lastly, find ways to show the ones I love how much I love them in simple ways. Been reading the "Five Love Languages" book and want to apply it to all people I love. So don't be surprised to get a call or card or sign of love from me.
And as always, you are welcome to come along on this crazy ride of self REdiscovery!
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Children and School
I had a situation yesterday. Actually, it's a situation that has been building and it finally came to a head yesterday. It's still on my mind today.
And I have penned a letter to teachers. But first I must say that I truly LOVE my children's teachers. There are only 2 of Elizabeth's teachers that can take a hike, but all the rest of the teachers.... I LOVE them!!! I have been blessed with a great "team"!!! So having said that, here is my letter to Teachers:
Dear Teachers,
I am so grateful to have you on my team in helping me raise my children. I have entrusted their minds to your care for MANY hours a day/week/year. And I believe that you are doing an amazing job. I know your struggles and frustrations with your work. I try to help you as much as I can!
But I need you to understand something as well. My family tends to be late and absent more often than the normal child. I know this is frustrating for you and can disrupt the classroom. But there are 2 main reasons we are often late or absent.
First, I have 4 children! If I was up late with ONE sick child, that means I am exhausted and FOUR children will be late the next morning because Momma can't get out of bed.
The second reason is because sometimes we NEED the break. An extra hour to sleep in, or a day with Grandma and Grandpa. Or even a Jammy Day at home cuddling with Mom. Their mental health is a lot more important to me than their mental capabilities. I guess you could say that I would rather have an emotionally secure and sweet dumb child than a smart pain in the "bleep". And honestly, in your classroom - wouldn't you? LOL! I might be wrong, but I feel strongly that One of the reasons my kids are such "good kids" is because they are so well grounded. In our house; family and soul trumps school!
And having said all that, I want you to understand that if you see the lateness and absences affecting my child's schoolwork PLEASE talk to me about it! I am willing to take it up a notch if I need to and if I am able to. But DO NOT make fun of them or harrass them in front of the class for being late. It's not their fault - it's mine. :) Come talk to me.
You guys know that I love you! You know that I would do what I can to help YOU!! And I have. Not to be a brown-noser; but because I really do understand how difficult your job is and I REALLY do appreciate all that you do!!!!
Have a great day - Love my kids - and call me if you need me!
Hugs,
Steph
And I have penned a letter to teachers. But first I must say that I truly LOVE my children's teachers. There are only 2 of Elizabeth's teachers that can take a hike, but all the rest of the teachers.... I LOVE them!!! I have been blessed with a great "team"!!! So having said that, here is my letter to Teachers:
Dear Teachers,
I am so grateful to have you on my team in helping me raise my children. I have entrusted their minds to your care for MANY hours a day/week/year. And I believe that you are doing an amazing job. I know your struggles and frustrations with your work. I try to help you as much as I can!
But I need you to understand something as well. My family tends to be late and absent more often than the normal child. I know this is frustrating for you and can disrupt the classroom. But there are 2 main reasons we are often late or absent.
First, I have 4 children! If I was up late with ONE sick child, that means I am exhausted and FOUR children will be late the next morning because Momma can't get out of bed.
The second reason is because sometimes we NEED the break. An extra hour to sleep in, or a day with Grandma and Grandpa. Or even a Jammy Day at home cuddling with Mom. Their mental health is a lot more important to me than their mental capabilities. I guess you could say that I would rather have an emotionally secure and sweet dumb child than a smart pain in the "bleep". And honestly, in your classroom - wouldn't you? LOL! I might be wrong, but I feel strongly that One of the reasons my kids are such "good kids" is because they are so well grounded. In our house; family and soul trumps school!
And having said all that, I want you to understand that if you see the lateness and absences affecting my child's schoolwork PLEASE talk to me about it! I am willing to take it up a notch if I need to and if I am able to. But DO NOT make fun of them or harrass them in front of the class for being late. It's not their fault - it's mine. :) Come talk to me.
You guys know that I love you! You know that I would do what I can to help YOU!! And I have. Not to be a brown-noser; but because I really do understand how difficult your job is and I REALLY do appreciate all that you do!!!!
Have a great day - Love my kids - and call me if you need me!
Hugs,
Steph
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
How 'Bout Them Chiefs?!
Here are some pics of Halloween. We went to Greg and Jackies. First we had a little Halloween party with yummy food, games, and playing. Then we went trick or treating in their neighborhood. The funny thing is that each year we always have an "incident". One year Greg almost lite a house on fire. Another year we had a lady give the kids a package of sliced cheese. Well, this year didn't disappoint! At one of the houses there was a big Chargers banner outside. Greg dared all the kids (8 of them) to say, "How 'bout them Chiefs?" instead of "Trick or Treat!" (I am assuming that the Chiefs just beat the Chargers in a game). Greg told the kids that whoever said it he would give them 3 full-sized candy bars. Well...... they all did it!!!! bwahahahaha!!!! They came skipping back to us and wanted their candy bars. Funny thing is that at the next house they each said "How 'bout them Chiefs?" They figured they'd get 3 candy bars EACH time they said it!!! Smart Funny kids!!
Even Ellie drank some Party Punch (out of Andrea's cup)!
Playing Musical Chairs
Even Ellie drank some Party Punch (out of Andrea's cup)!
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