Down in the Dumps

For some odd reason, I'm down in the dumps today. I have NO motivation and I feel really weepy. On the verge of tears all day. I decided to be kind to me today. I've been taking it easy and doing things that I want to do today. I'm still trying to be productive.
This morning I got Sunday's coupons collated and stapled. I went through a few of the ads. I tied up our vines to the pergola so that they wrap around the posts. I clipped some bushes in the front yard and watered the grass (old fashioned style - sprinkler system is still down). I also worked on the kids' blocks. We have some old pieces of wood that I'm sanding down to make blocks for them to play with outside.
So, I've still been busy.
I should be taking a shower and getting ready to pick up the kids from school right now, BUT.....

Tonight is a busy night for us. Eli has Scouts, Elizabeth has a big Achievments Day activity, and I have YW. I sure hope I find the motivation to get things done that I need to for these things! :)

For My Mom

This song makes me think of you. I have it below on my music if you wanna listen to it.

In My Daughter's Eyes

In my daughter's eyes I am a hero
I am strong and wise and I know no fear
But the truth is plain to see
She was sent to rescue me
I see who I wanna be
In my daughter's eyes

In my daughter's eyes everyone is equal
Darkness turns to light and the
world is at peace
This miracle God gave to me gives me
strength when I am weak
I find reason to believe
In my daughter's eyes

And when she wraps her hand
around my finger
Oh it puts a smile in my heart
Everything becomes a little clearer
I realize what life is all about

It's hangin' on when your heart
has had enough
It's giving more when you feel like giving up
I've seen the light
It's in my daugter's eyes

In my daughter's eyes I can see the future
A reflection of who I am and what will be
Though she'll grow and someday leave
Maybe raise a family
When I'm gone I hope you see how happy
she made me
For I'll be there
In my daughter's eyes

I know that it's a mom singing about her daughter, but as it reminds me of my own daughters, I better understand you! :)
Yes, I am grown and raising a family; and you really are here - in my eyes & MY HEART!
I love you!

Recently...

I had a sad situation that really made me think about my kids. I'm not going to go into the situation, but I'd like to share my resulting thoughts.
You know those moments when you stop and wonder what your kids feel and think? I've been wondering what my kids think of how I feel about them. They know I love them, Mom's are supposed to. But do they really think that I enjoy, cherish, and value them - as people?! Yes, they are still small, but if I don't value them now will I later when they are older? Do I show them my joy in who they are? And the sad truth is, not really. Not as much as I'd like them to.
I want them to walk out the door each day and understand how much fun I have with them or how much I wish to be near them! I don't want to push them aside for my own enjoyment - my own wants. Yes, it's important to have some time for myself or my hubby or my friends, but I NEVER want them to feel pushed aside.
My babies are funny, sweet, obedient, loving, and enjoyable! And if they know that Mom thinks so then maybe, just maybe as they go through the yucky things of this world, they'll be able to hold their heads up and be content with who they are.

So, there are some of my deep thoughts. Maybe occasionally you all can remind me of my vow to my "little" ones! :)

The Gang

We went Trick-or-Treating @ my brother, Greg's, house. His 2 girls and my 4 kids always have SO much fun together. And Bret and I Love being with Greg and Jackie. I am blessed to have them semi-close to us. Queen Creek is about as far from our side of the Valley as you can get, but at least we are in the same state (unless you ask my brother who feels that driving to our house is the same as driving to LA). Anyway, here are pics from last night.

Left-Right:
Back Row: Jake (Ninja), Elizabeth (Ghost Bride), Elijah (Ninja), Ella (Pig), Shaylee (Vampire)
Front: Livvy (Jaguar)