I've been very "thoughtful" the past couple of days. It has been triggered by 2 things. I was scanning old pictures of the kids and really started to get heart sick for those old days. I miss the times of holding my babies and chasing toddlers. I miss no school and having cuddly jammie days - just 'cause! Life was so sweet and simple then, but I was so confused and muddled that I couldn't enjoy it. Why is it that during the most precious times of your children's lives you are at the hardest personal struggles as well. What's that saying? "You can't enjoy the forest for the trees." It's so true. As Young Mommy's we are only staring at the tree and trying to figure out how to help that little sapling grow. *sigh* I wish I could go back and savor those moments.
Now, the second thing that triggered my thoughtful state came from a friend that is going through some difficult things with her tiny, tiny bundle of joy. I have been amazed at how this little family gathers around this little one's "nest" to just be with him. To just gaze and wonder at the little warrior that he is! It's a tough road for all of them - but my advice is what EVERY older mom gives young ones: CHERISH the NOW!!!! Natalie, look for the quiet joys. And let all the unessential things take a back seat. :) Truly cherish this time and learn from it. You'll blink and next thing you know Duncan is headed to 5th grade dealing with girls and trying to be cool. Of course you'll be hoping for a good teacher for him (but she won't be as totally wonderful as my daughter's 5th grade teacher). :)
4 comments:
Steph, you are so right. I had this idea of how I was going to be as a mom and now-it is out the window. I am going to have to reconfigure it all. This is why it is so heart wrenching for me to think of going back to work, because I want to cherish all he does. Thanks for being a great friend. I'm glad we "discovered" that we were both Mormon. Thanks for all your support and prayers.
Steph, you are amazing! When I read your blog it is like you are writing it just for me.... you are writing it just for me, right? :) We have been in St Louis for the summer for a job for my husband. While we have been here I have been able to slow down and just be with my kids and it has been soooo nice! We have all grown spiritually and as a family! We have simplified our lives and it has been wonderful! You are amazing and your family is lucky to have you! You are truly one of the most genuinely caring people that I have met! Keep up the good work! XOXO
Thanks for sharing your thoughts. It seems that I also have these reflection moments at the end of a school year or beginning. I'm trying hard to savor each moment with the kids.
Well that was random... I notice your link on Nat's blog. Small world, isn't it!
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