Conversations on the Ride Home From School

E - "JACKPOT!" (a game we play by calling out every yellow car you see)
J - "Mom, what will you give me if I win? Candy?"
Me - confused "Win what?
J - "If I win at Jackpot - A dollar or candy or something?"
Me - "No Jake, I won't give you anything." mental sigh
J - "Well, then I'm not playing. What's in it for me?"
(yes, he actually said that) :)
E - "Jake, you can't always play for money and things. What if you are playing against a HoBo? He doesn't have anything to give you if you win."

Did that conversation really just happen?! Yep, you bet your bottom, it did!!"

Will the REAL Stephanie please step forward?!

I don't want to clean the very messy house, I don't want to go to the appointment that I have for Livvy's speech, and I don't want to put real clothes on. I just want to lay around the house and read a book. :) Can I please??!!!???

I feel sad today. I feel lost in so many aspects of my life. Have you ever had a time in your life where you are a completely different person than from who you've always been? I am going through that right now. I don't know what caused the change and it's very foreign to me. I really do feel odd - like I'm not myself.

For example, I used to enjoy being creative. I wasn't ever extremely talented, but I had fun creating things. Not now. I can't stand the hassle it takes to create. I want things simple.

Also, I used to be a friendly person. I have ALWAYS loved other people and found joy in my friendships. Now I don't let anyone get too close. I don't like the hassle of dealing with people. I can never do the right things for them. Things I say or do are misunderstood.

I used to be more organized in my callings. Now I'm a scatterbrained, teary-eyed mess. I can't seem to formulate a concise thought to save my life and I don't wear mascara to church anymore. It ends up running down my face.

It is such an odd feeling to not recognize yourself. And the frustrating thing is that not all of my new "traits" are bad. I just don't understand why I'm so different and how can I get some of "me" back?

Bang! Bang!

Look @ what we did today!

Shooting

Something From My Sister

Ok, this posting idea is something my sister does and I LOVE it!!!! So, I am going to copycat.

SIMPLE WOMAN'S DAYBOOK
Outside my window...
it's a nice chilly Phoenix morning. Something like 55ish (no snow). My grass is mostly dead and my birds are gone. I need to fill the bird feeders.

I am thinking...
about what I need to get done today vs. what I WANT to do!

I am thankful...
for my calling in church (Primary). We have a Teacher Inservice this Sunday that I'm working on. The title is, "Teacher, Do You Love Me?" I LOVE those kids!!!

From the kitchen...
i see no dirty dishes, but I do see random things on the counters. Primary Binder, jewelry, and Cody (Livvy's stuffed animal).

I am wearing...
jammies - striped pink bottoms and a Tinkerbell "Feisty" shirt. I also have on my jacket still from dropping kids off at school.

I am creating...
Magnets with the Primary Presidency's contact info.

I am reading...
A series by Tamora Pierce (LOVE her)!!

I am hoping...
that my med.s kick in soon. I hate being so angry! :)

I am hearing...
Price Is Right. In-laws are in town and LOVE it. So do I, it reminds me of being home sick from school. :)

One of my favorite things...
texting!!! I have recently gotten Unlimited Texting and I now wonder how I ever did without it.

A few plans for the rest of the week...
shopping and planning for Sunday evening; cleaning house (expecially the bathrooms); putting the deadbolt back on the door (don't ask); plan a meeting with the other YCL leaders; and lastly, hug lots of kids on Sunday!!! :)

A picture thought I am sharing...

I made "Squid" for the kids and their cousins last week. This is how it SHOULD have been made. I didn't take a picture of mine, but it wasn't made like this. That's what I get for hearing of the idea from my mom who heard it from my sister and I didn't go straight to the source. :)