I have had an overflowing mind today. And since I love my blog so much, here I am reflecting on a few things.
For the past few months I have been transitioning into another phase of my life. And it has been difficult. I've gone from the "new family" part into the "more established family" part. My childbearing years are done and my kiddos are getting older. And not only that, I feel my desires and thoughts changing too. I look at things differently and I am having a hard time fitting in. Part of my life is still with the young mommies, and yet I'm stepping into the older mommies stage. I've come to realize that we go through this all our lives. Growing pains! :)
The hardest part to all of this is realizing that I'm not even the same person I used to be. I struggle with things that I handled wonderfully in the past. I get frustrated with things that I used to have patience for. Certain aspects of my personality are completely opposite. I'm trying so hard to be who I used to be and yet realizing that I can't. (Man, do I sound like a mid-life crisis or what?!) LOL
If anyone has any quick fix ideas, let me know! :)
Anywho, sorry for the deep thoughts! I've just been thinking about things a lot.
Tonight we are going to the Easter Pagent at the Temple. I could really use a nice night with my family! Bret works Mon, Tues, Wed nights until 10ish pm. By Thursday I miss him and really crave family time. Sooooooo I better go and get things ready.
3 comments:
we went to the pageant last night; always so good. I know what you mean about graduating, lol! Sometimes I think we should have another baby just so I can still fit into that new baby/young family slot. Ahh well. Something to be said for the fact that they're almost out of diapers. And they sleep thru the night. And in another year or two, they can ALL ride ALL the rides at Disneyland. =) Just celebrate what a more mature family can do as opposed to the young ones. And look at old scrapbooks and remember. =)
Steph you will always be a young mommy to me. And I have a hard time seeing you not fitting in! I wish that I had some quick fixes for you, but it turns out that I need some of my own! You are going to laugh at me, but I feel old being 26. Moving back to where I grew up has made me reflect on my past. I feel like the stresses that I have had over the last few years have really worn me out and I feel like it shows. For better and worse, it has made me a different person. In life we wear many different hats with our different responsibilities. I have found that I have to choose to be happy where I am at and live each stage of my life to its fullest, because b4 you know it, the stage has passed. Look at that, I guess that I do have some advice for you. Now if I could just take that advice myself... Thanks for the post. I already feel a bit better just sharing my feelings with you! :)
try being an old lady with a young family and trying to fit in with everyone! :0)
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